It’s been a while, huh?
A little under two years ago, I made the decision to call it quits on blogging. I had landed myself with a dreamy job, was slowly finding peace with my mental health, and was on what I thought was the right path for me.
Unfortunately, if you follow me over on Twitter, you maybe know that things took a turn in September 2018 when my wonderful mam woke up one morning unable to walk and in agonising pain. Fast forward to December ’18, and after a lot of worry and hospital visits, my mam was sadly diagnosed with a super rare bone cancer, Osteosarcoma, in her spine.
The next 5 months were a blur, as my mam faced two life-saving surgeries where the incredible NHS staff were able to successfully operate. But then the god-awful chemotherapy followed, which were to put it simply, hell. After a ICU scare, my mam managed to make it through *cue lots and lots of happy tears* and thankfully made it home after such a long time in hospital.
Sadly things soon got on top of me, and only hours after my mam had the best news that her latest scans were clear, I was sacked from I thought was my dream job.
And here we are today. Taking on the role of my mam’s caregiver whilst she slowly recovers, allowing myself time to navigate my own wellbeing and future, one step at a time.
It’s been a life-changing year that I won’t be forgetting in a hurry, but with pain and fear comes a lot of personal growth and I’m certainly not the same person I was 12 months ago. My priorities have shifted, and I’ve realised that things really don’t always turn out as you had planned – but, that doesn’t mean it has to be a negative thing. Whilst things have been challenging with major lows, there have been extreme highs too, and the days that have left me feeling broken have also allowed new light in and a new sense of overwhelming gratitude.
With life looking a whole lot slower (thankfully) right now, I’ve found myself a little fearful on where things may take me next, pondering over new goals and ambitions. But following my gut, I’ve felt ready to reach for the keyboard again and open up WordPress.
I guess this is hello again. I’m feeling ready to step away from all the rubbish I’ve dealt with these past 18 months and ready to walk into what I hope will be much happier year. Time for some positive changes, eh?
So what should you expect to see from me?
Well, ultimately I’m kind of just winging it, but I want this to be a happy space. I’ll admit my life is pretty boring, but y’know what? I quite like it that way sometimes. I’ve come to learn that I’m a homebird who prefers nights in and simple things and that’s a-ok. I like cooking good food, playing with new makeup products and dipping my toe into fashion trends, so hopefully this little space of mine will reflect these things.