As we enter December and the Christmas countdown truly begins, I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t excited to see the end of 2017. A rollercoaster of a year, it’s been filled with some of the biggest highs and some of the lows I never thought I’d have to experience.
I’ve been a little MIA where my blog (and social media in general) the past month or so, after facing some unexpected news. November got off to a great start, as we celebrated at the local Prince’s Trust Awards my brother winning Young Ambassador of the Year. We woke up on the 2nd November to my brother in all of the local papers and hearing him interviewed on the radio – we felt on top of the world. And then only a few hours later things came crashing down in a split second, as we got a phone call with the most awful news. A loved one had passed away suddenly and very unexpectedly.
Now I’ve dealt with grief many times in my life, having lost 3 of my grandparents over the past few years. They all died after long illnesses, and if anything it felt like a relief at the end. However, this was total different. Someone only a few years older than me, a family member I’d grown up with at family gatherings – someone from my generation with their whole life ahead of them – taken suddenly. And it’s really hit home how quickly things can change. It’s still something very raw, and something I’m going to have to learn to come to deal with – which is why I chose to step back from the online world for a little while whilst I came to terms with it.
It’s been a really testing time, but with these times come a lot of reflection and it’s given me the opportunity to evaluate where I am and where I want to go. Chances are, I’ll still be taking things a little slower until the end of the year, but I feel a real fire in my belly that I want to make some changes. So moving forward, there’ll be a few smaller changes here. Instead of focusing on personal style, for a little while I want to blog more about beauty and lifestyle and see where that takes me. I want to make some design changes to my layout, change up my photography styles. And looking into the future, I’m beginning the process of going freelance. Next month I’ll be taking part in the Prince’s Trust Enterprise course to learn the ropes of being self employed with the aims of launching my own business. I also want to help raise awareness of mental health conditions and those who may be suffering in silence, because it now feels more important than ever. I want to try and make a difference, in whatever way I can.
This past month has really taught me to appreciate the smaller things and what we have when we have them. No matter how cliche it is, it really is true that we don’t realise what we have until we lose them, and lemme tell ya, it’s a feeling I wouldn’t wish on anyone. So with that in mind, I’d like to thank everyone who reads this post, whether you’re new to my blog or you’ve been here a while. To those who comment on my posts, who likes my sporadic Instagram posts and who reply to my Twitter rants; thank you. Once you’ve hit the bottom, the only way is up. Onwards and upwards from here!