When I finished University a month ago, I had all of these blog plans going forward. But then the reality kicked in; that despite having a lot of free time on my hands whilst I job hunt, no job means there's no funds either. And whilst I don't believe at all you need money to blog, there's no doubt about it - there's that pressure to buy into the latest trends. Maybe it's self-inflicted, maybe it's because I studied fashion journalism at University so I'm very aware of what people are wearing each season, or maybe it's because I spend too much time on social media, who knows. But it's there, and whilst I'm on a serious spending ban, I've found myself wondering whether I'm just too poor to have a blog because I can't keep up with the buying habits of many of the bloggers I read.
And it's a bit blummin' ridiculous, right? So I've been taking some time to regroup my thoughts. I haven't been posting very much, but behind the scenes I've been planning away at things I'd like to post and ways around the money issues. Ways in which I can be a little savvy when it comes to updating my wardrobe on a budget, things like that. It's so easy to find ourselves wanting to keep up with other bloggers and how much they spend on their blog. And whilst I'm certainly not criticising it at all (because trust me, if I had the money to splurge on high-end items, I would), sometimes I find myself having to remind myself that I'm not in the minority.
I remember when I first started blogging many years ago and I was full of enthusiasm, enjoying every second I spent working on my blog. From daily posts to constantly tweaking my layout and teaching myself the basics of HTML, I was really content just doing my own thing. I was, financially, in the same place I am today, yet I never felt held back at all. And I think I take a lesson or two from my blogging newbie days, when I didn't put pressure on myself to follow suit of the other blogs I read. I didn't have the money, and that was fine, I just had to do things my way.
I'm not really sure where this post is going, I've just been feeling really flat recently and wanted to write about my thoughts somewhere. It's a little jumbled, and major props to you if you've made it this far, but I need to stop second guessing myself when it comes to my posts so I'm going with it. I'm going to write when I want, about what I want, and remind myself that I don't need money to be a blogger. Heck I own enough makeup and clothes for years to come and I'm incredibly privileged to own what I do own. Things could be a whole lot worse and I think I sometimes take that for granted. Yeah my Converse may be a little too scruffy and I may be a serious outfit repeater, but who really cares?